I woke up at two in the afternoon today, now it's six something and it's already dark out. I'm still in my PJs, and didn't really get anything done today. What a waste. Now I don't think I'm gonna be able to sleep tonight, and I have to get up at six in the morning tomorrow. I've been feeling very strange lately. For the past few days, I've been waking up with pounding headaches... as if I'd been drinking heavily the night before. But, I'm totally sober! It's like a bad hangover every morning, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I have no idea what could be causing it because I've actually been eating healthier and trying to avoid drinking sodas. I don't know. When I woke up today, (while I was experiencing a terrible headache), I thought that maybe they could be caused by having wierd dreams at night. Last night, I had this dream that I was by myself at some kind of fancy restaraunt somewhere in Hollywood. I ordered two drinks and an appetizer for myself, and the waitress came and sat with me (I guess she felt sorry because I was by myself, or something) but then I ended up "returning" the drinks and the food because I didn't have enough money? Then there was another part of the dream, (or maybe it was a different dream, I don't know) where I found out that this guy really liked me. He wasn't particularly attractive, but he was so sweet to me. He won me stuffed animals from those claw machines... he brought me medicine when I had a headache.. he fed me all kinds of compliments.. all that good stuff. And throughout the dream, I was kinda forcing myself to like him, but I just couldn't. I tried and tried to convince myself that he was right for me, but nothing felt right at all. I woke up feeling lonely, and doomed to be single for the rest of my life. And these stupid headaches.... ugh.
Today, a customer told me that custom framing is one of the most complicated jobs that you can have, but get paid the least for. I didn't know whether to see that as a good thing, or a bad thing. One one hand, you see your job as something not anyone can do.. and that makes you feel special. But since we associate monetary value with the level of expertise (to some extent), you question that "special-ness." Eh, I don't know. Tomorrow will be my first day off since last Sunday, and this makes me happy! I feel like I've been losing touch with everything except for work, and that can't be good. Having dinner with Miss Connie and Emily tomorrow night, finally, something social! I want to go dancing. The last time we went clubbing wasn't such a good experience. Waited in line for about an hour, and we still had to pay even though we were on the guestlist. Ugh. Nevar again! Don't go to Garden of Eden in Hollywood... it sucks. And the security guards are stupid. So Ryan stopped by to pick up his painting... and I didn't feel awkward. Moreso at peace than anything else. It actually wasn't even a big deal, he came and left, that was it. The end.
Today, I went to work and got paid for doing absolutely nothing. It was great. I picked up my diploma from campus, finally. It's signed by the govenator.
I'm kinda nervous about calling someone. And I don't know why. He's gonna come and pick up his painting, but I don't really care. I'll call him tomorrow. I want to get rid of the painting anyways.
Tomorrow, I work from noon till 7pm. Which means Naomi gets to sleep in! Ohh, my boss laughed at me today cos I accidentally referred to myself in third person. Today was fun.
Today I found a dollar on the floor, and I got a fortune that read "You will be fortunate in everything." Let's just hope that these are signs of things to come. :)
Another year has come and gone. Aside from graduating and becoming more independent, this year wasn't all that spectacular. Sad to say, but true. I always look at my plans for new year's eve as an indication of what the year has been in a nutshell. Here I am, no plans for celebration, hoping that 2006 will be better than 2005. What a way to ring in the new year.
I might not be able to go snowboarding because I was scheduled to work on Thursday. Blah. Maybe I'll call in sick. But I don't know, I kinda need the hours. If I go snowboarding, then I cannot request next Monday off. Ugh, what should I do? Should I take time off to go home, or to go snowboarding? I can't have both.
Mmm... peace and quiet. Haven't experienced this in a long time. I've lost seven pounds since last time I weighed myself. It must be my diet of el pollo loco and mc donalds... oh yeah, and being on my feet all the time. Poor feet. I feel like an old lady. My hip was hurting throughout the evening. I don't know if I bent it the wrong way or I stretched something? Or my ovary broke? :P If it doesn't stop hurting by tomorrow, I'll have to get it checked, and that's more money down the drain since I don't have health insurance. :-X Oh... life is hard ! Especially around this time of the year. I have a little bit of Christmas shopping left to do, and a birthday present to get for someone. Someone? Someone? Whoooo?? . . . Oo! We're going snowboarding on Thursday! Hopefully this time I won't be such a wuss. Damn, those bruises from last time... I'll never forget that. They were like birthing scars.
You know what I realized? One day, I will make an excellent mother and an excellent wife. Just a random epiphany. But I've actually been thinking about it a lot lately. Kinda sad if you think about it... cos I don't even have a boyfriend.. (yet?)
It's way passed my bedtime. I've been staying up late these past few days/week. It feels like I'm in college again. (Heh, like it was THAT long ago.)
All of this waking up early is taking a toll on me. I feel so tired, but for some reason, I don't want to sleep yet cos it's only ten o'clock. Before college, ten o'clock seemed like an appropriate time to go to sleep. Then during college, some nights would START at ten o'clock. Now I feel tired and old. It's strange how that works.
I want to get into the habit of painting regularly again. When I'm at work, I get all sorts of ideas, and now I have all these random notes about future projects. They're gonna have to remain in note form until I get my next paycheck.
That time is approaching: the time to apply for grad schools for fall 2006. Exciting, right? I'm applying in January and February, which means I really have to get my act together as far as my portfolio is concerned. Where can I take good quality slides?? Or where can I meet someone that will take slides of my work for me?
:-/
Thanksgiving is this Thursday. I haven't been home in a while. I think the last time was around July? Something like that. I don't even know for sure if I am gonna be home. Gotta work early on Black Friday.
It bothers me when people take the kindness of others for granted. If someone cooks dinner for you, the LEAST you could do is NOT complain when he asks you to wash a few dishes. I hate when people think that the world revolves around them. These people expect to be served, they don't appreciate others' efforts, and they see NOTHING wrong with that. I don't understand. Everyone has "things to do" and everyone is tired. What makes you so special? I know this sounds cheesy, but what some people don't realize is that a simple "thank you" goes a long way. So remember that when someone does something nice for you.
exhausted